My sister got married

My sister got married

My sister got married to day
Twenty Eleven october the eighth
So be sure to put it in you diary
Write it down, mark this date
Because we have all witnessed here
Love shared, shown and displayed
Hearts and families bound together
Something that no man may brake

By Jesse Johnson

I live the Circle of Life

I live the Circle of Life
I didn't want to be in their shoes
I was comfortable in mine
I didn't want to preserve the love
I'm not the sort you soak in brine
They always though i had screws loose
But it was never a matter of time
They had done it once before
But it was never consider a crime
Was life really worth all this?
I've learn't to swallow my pride
Finding it hard to see through heavens eyes
Cause I'm human, so the way i decide
And the decisions that I make
Depend on sin, sin provides
I'm human, I'm imperfect
Now theres no need to read inbetween the lines
Stare life in its face
And suss out all the lies
Have to smile once in a while
More often than when I'm high
Jump for joy, grin teeth
More often than I cry
Go to sleep and wake up
And remind myself...I live the Circle of Life

by Jesse Johnson

19

19

I'm 19 today
And it still hasn't sunk in
Drunken words this may be, but I am one King
Been feelling kind of down, scary face Pumpkin
All it takes is a knife and a Steak, and I'm lunching
I denied the grave once, no fronting
the only sueprman is in my boxers, no stunting
I'd rather be in my ralph and a snap back, looking stunning
2 years 1 moth 4 days, and I still got prospects coming
So if grim tries to take ma again, I'll send him running
Had my hood days on the block, bunning
Soldiered life even though i ain't fought for the Queen, gunning
So it's me on the mountain, I've crushed the mole hills
And evey day I wake up, feeling alive feels more real

by Jesse Johnson

Remember

Remember

People leave all the time they say

It’s just another day

And we always seem to think

Can it be another way?

But although you’re gone

You’ll always be in my memory

Distances isn’t a feat to defeat me

So remember that you’ll always be a friend 

Phone calls on rainy days

Email or message me

Life is a journey, we can come and go endlessly

Just remember those who left

And remember what they meant us, to you

And what they meant to me

By Jesse Johnson

Encroach

Encroach

There was nothing that i could do about it
It hurts me to think of her wishing it would stop
Why would someone wanna do that for?
So fowl and fiendish, diabolical and raw

It is poor, rat tat on your door
It would either be the feds or grim with his sickle
The way i see it, its revenge
It'll either be me or you sitting in the pen

And remember this. What happens on the late night
Will get repaid in the broad day bare face
No love no fore play
Have something pointing at your head, like this is a Saw game

But this is serious, you must have been delusional
You mother should be ashamed of you
Wish i find you kill you twice over and shit on your grave
Treat women like women, not how they treated the slaves

by Jesse Johnson

Repent

Repent

(Repent definition, to feel sorry, self-reproachful, or contrite for past conduct ; regret or be conscience-stricken about a past action, attitude, etc.)

I like to get away from the world that we're living in
I see kids killing kids, and me killing kin
And when the end comes, you can't repent your sins
You though your wrong was right, you thought you'd win

But you deceived yourself from the first minute
Acted harsh and abrasive, up until the finish
Black eyes red knives, anger diminished
Murder was the case, but yourself your killing

Violation of innoscence, and your own rights
You only haunt yourself, when you sleep at night
You did the dirt, you took the life
We all know its a facede of pride
Your conscience is the tool, that will make you see the light...

Escape
Repent
Receive life
Live! Not survive

By Jesse Johnson

This is why it hurts

This is why it hurts

See my mind it suffers in silent’s
Suffers from the in directs and the hypement
Hyper mentality of my rightly guarded insanity
So it gets you mad and only comes out when I'm angry b

Cause all the emotion is locked up in a cabernet
Looks are deceiving cause its more like a safe
And every time you get the code wrong
I add another digit and build up your hate

I can see the hope disappear from your face
And you patients turns into impatience
Cause you can no longer wait
Me and you are no longer on the straight

Ups and downs and twists and turns
Lights this house on fire, and lets it burn
Nothings going to change, when anger churns
When are we going to grow up, when will we learn

I can't open up
That’s why the burdens burden all, and it hurts

by Jesse Johnson

Looking

Looking

Looking for words of wisdom
All on a layer of skin
Searching through the depths of my tissue
For the cells that could barely win
All of my imperfection
From all of these molecules comes sin
Trying to figure out the friends and foes it's like I see through tints
So I've got these blurry eyes
My blood vessels filled with the greenest stink
The trees came and freed my mind
Meditation, it's time for me to think
So I'm here looking and searching
Seeing past black white cream yellow grey and pink
I don't judge books by there covers
Cause that just shows that my mind os thin
So I'm patiently waiting
For the day where I can remove my mind from this brink
So I won't be done with my soul searching
My main focus is me that's why I'm looking in

By Jesse Johnson

Dead Comer Alive

Dead Comer Alive

The way you act is like you put me in the cold earth
No life in your eyes, what's your soul worth? 
Yes I'm jealous of yours, mine had no birth
Sometimes you make me wonder why the earth turns
Why my heart still beats? And why my gut churns?
Why you got me feeling wicked? What purpose do your cuts serve?
Love for you long gone, dead ends and no swerves
For change in my heart, I'm dead to you, no nerves

The silence from your tongue, doesn't match your eyes
I can tell you're thinking, and there's to much pride
It's like you put me in limbo, cause the loving died
No kissing, hugging and touching, that's why I'm not inside
But I'm shut out of your cold world, to much to hide?
If only it was that, I can't see you slide
If only you knew and you could read my mind
Then I wouldn't be in this comer of love, you'd be by my side

Moreover, they say that shit happens for a reason
I've always been in bloom, cause I'm not about the season
That's why I stand tall like a tree, life in my stem is what I'm feeling
And I bare fruit, for my poetry to be peeling
Cause my past is out the window, and my hope through the ceiling
And I pray for the thought of me in front of you kneeling 
That's why I'm here, sitting here revealing
To you they made me dead or deaden, and you're my only sense of healing

By Jesse Johnson  

Habits

Habits

Money is on my mind again
I wonder why my pockets are empty
I'm trying to count my blessings
But my blessings haven't been plenty

My luck nearly ran out again
Back to zero, back to the start
I don't want to know what rich is
I just want enough to maintain a heart

So it finished again
Or did it just end prematurely 
But it doesn't matter now
I'll brake old spells, surely

So here I am again
I raise my glass high above my head
As a toast to all these habits
I look forward to good ones, and leave the unfortunate for dead

By Jesse Johnson

Watch this space

Watch this space

I heard Shakespeare say it once 
But I'm far from him 
Trying to touch heaven 
Like I'm far from sin
But forget being sky high
Cause i've got human limbs
But what I wouldn't do 
For the taste of wings
So I can fly up to the seraphs 
And hear the angels sing
Switch all the jewels in the crown
And rearrange the king
Flip coins, save pounds
To gain the bling
And sit at zero miles per hour
And let the haters watch my stainless spin
Dreams are dreams
Don't forget to watch this space I'm in

By Jesse Johnson

Man

Man

Man cannot live by bread alone
Because his mind must feed also
Upon the things he reads and the things he hears
To build him up, even more so

Meaning that the man must think
The man must reason and please his thought
So his mind ages and his life experiences
What wisdom is, he cannot be taught

So he goes out in the big wide world
And he is sat on and shat on and trampled
He crawls he runs drives and flies
And at times, he weakly ambles

He starts off in his mothers bosom
He suckles like a lamb
And from life's luke warm milk
He eventually becomes a man

By Jesse Johnson

Congratulations

Congratulations

You've been given a gift to treasure forever
Your cups are forever full to the brim with pleasure
You are now man and wife, no further half measures
The two are now one. We smile at your splendour
Congratulations

By Jesse Johnson

Justice

Justice

(Justice is the quality of being just; righteousness, equitableness, or moral rightness: to uphold the justice of a cause.)

Justice brought me into this world
The mere fact I wasn't aborted
The fact she didn't drink or smoke
The mere fact she gave up snorting

Dads a prime example
Of a man who's not supportive
So I'm a confused baby, battered and bruised
With a body that's been thwarted

But yet my fathers in the kitchen, drinking
Stella, drunken hands, just?
Enough to abuse, mother and seduce
To sex, sodomy, and lust

So here I am, hearing screams, gulps and gags
My sister comes in late, she was out there being bad
She had blood all over her coat again
Dark eyes, I saw along with her pale blood red hands

But that's what happens when you've seen what she's seen
So much abuse and many passed away
And you pray, hope and think
For forever and a day

She gave up on church
And she gave up on the mosque
Religion could no longer guide her
She felt inadequate for God

So she now is where father used to be
So much for like father like son
I don't want to be in the streets
And I never wanna be like mum

So hear I am a few decades after
The brutal days where I was conceived
Making up for lost time
From the childhood I had bereaved

I am not my father, mother or sister
I can only possibly be me
Live my life from what I've learnt
In righteousness and J-U-S-T-I-C-E

By Jesse Johnson

The Day I Die

The day I die

The day I die, I will be a legend
I know for a fact, I ain't reaching heaven
Sitting contemplating thoughts, telling myself
Life was so different when I was seven

Look at me now, times to two and add four
I've felt my soul drain from my back, legs and jaw
I stay quiet cause it started with back stabbing
So much so, for opening mouths to law

I stuck to the code, lived by a knife, and hugged on the roads
So many miss calls from one don on my phone
No one else was worried or rushed to my aid
No matter how big the batch, you're still all alone

Life's no bed a rose, so f flowers
I'd rather drown in the bath, I can't die in showers
No pain, I'm soulless
Homeless, mums moaning for hours

Once again, out on a late night
Tick tock big ben, sings near the bright lights
But then again, its not my time
To go, my heart still beats, right

Sometimes she says she can't feel my heart
Ice cold, stone, hear it in my laugh
My voice is dark, somebody find me a pathway
I'm standing at the entrance, asking for a new start

So until the day I die
Let me live, love, thrive, keep my mind
Sanity, breathe survive
Be me till the day I die, one of a kind

By Jesse Johnson

In that Moment

In that moment

The wind brushed against our cheeks
And the water danced as it splashed against the lifeless rocks
Our faces drew closer, and our bodies were magnetic
And then our lips touched sending tingles from the top

Down to my socks, making my heart flutter
Inside the shutter of my chest
The gentle air stroking down your neck
There's that essence of us in every breathe

That's why the stars stood in the sky
Little winks. And the shooting star marked its smile
And the crescent moon listened, to the song of our hearts
As we embrace each other on the waters edge for that while

Everyday I ponder when I look into the night sky
How I long to repeat those minutes once again
The stars only appear when I'm with you
So it's savoured here, in that moment reminisced by my pen

By Jesse Johnson

All I Know Is that I Love You

All I know is that I love you

I'm not gonna sit here and try to give myself reasons
All I know is that I love you, and that love is not just a feeling
Its an emotion, to be motioned
That's why my tongue is here revealing
And everyday I hear your voice alone
The onion layers are peeling
So imagine when I see your face and touch your body too
My heart beat starts to pump, and something hits the ceiling
Bringing me back to when we was new
Me and you, we were revealing
Our nature, raw rough ragged to the bone
Slow sleek slender, all of those sensuous under tones
And everyday I see you face and think
That we never would have known
If one of us had been buried
Or one of our hearts were turned to stone
So here I am, my heart body mind and soul smiles when I wake
Because I'm glad that your the one I've chose
Cause I've danced with history and mystery
Down a long and dismal road
But with you, I know your presence
And all of your aspirations when we stroll
And I hope wish and wonder
Together we turn old
So we can remember and reminisce
And cherish every moment until deaths angel comes to kiss
So here I sign and seal my oath of love to you
With a drop of my blood and a splatter of my perfume
Let us in our merriment progress
And in loves strong hold continue

By Jesse Johnson

To You

To You

People spend a life time searching for what you have
And the time you've spent together so far just shows what love is
From the first vows, not an eye has bated
Signed and sealed with that one kiss

And billions more, and a couple of kids
Little truffles that god calls blessings
The preservation of life and legacy
Building family trees, brick upon brick places of dwelling

Come rain or shine, you've awaken to the same face
With a tender kiss with that whiff of morning breath and a smile
And you remember that time and distance is no barrier
Just to see, hug and hold, you'd travel a thousand miles

And distance makes the heart grow fonder
That's why you stay close inches deep every night
Tried and tested, your emotions and motives have frozen time
Weathered any storm, and thrown off any tempestuous smite

So you rise as the sun falls to your enjoyment of life
Family bonded in holy matrimony, you live as one with pride
Not a rock to turn over, no secrets between man and wife
Your rings are a symbol, there's nothing to hide

So here you are in the open
To all eyes and all ears
Where you tender loving care has been announced again
Here's to many more years

By Jesse Johnson